Journal 01 – The Beginning

Week 1: April 23 – May 6th

Wow… These past two weeks have been all over the place. I spent the majority of last week trying to figure out what my plan should be. What I need to do to kickstart this journey. I have to admit that I spent two to three days just waiting. Thinking. Trying to make this perfect.

One day led to another and soon I found myself stuck in the void of perfection that does not exist. This would be the root of all my failures. The ultimate waiting game. A repeated behavior that I have dealt with in the past. I forced myself out.

One of my first tasks was to rebrand my website. I bought four different apps to make my website perfect. In return, going way overboard with my budget. It took me a week to make this decision. To decide that I don’t have to have everything perfect and right. I can learn as I go. So I cancelled the app subscriptions and stuck with my budget. I can always enhance my website down the line.

I recorded my first podcast and finished editing it. I recorded my first video check in. Yet, I struggle with its content. Due to the one and only- perfection. None of it is perfect. None of it fits the quality I desire. My video and podcast are not great. Not to mention I hate my voice and am extremely uncomfortable. But we all have to start somewhere. This somewhere is not my greatest strength. In fact, it’s actually my greatest weakness.

To be so raw. To be uncomfortable. To be at the starting point and know that there is so much growth needed. It’s scary. But it’ll be worth it. To envision the future. To envision my growth.

Things accomplished:

  • Rebranded my website
  • Recorded first podcast and edited it!
  • Finished Changing My Life blog post
  • Paid off one of the three credit cards! 🙂

Things to work on:

  • Budget: you have been exceeding the monthly budget
  • Work on timeliness: must stick to deadlines!
  • Going to the gym 4 times a week
  • Become more comfortable in your skin

 

Note: Remember you are investing in yourself. Put the time and effort into your work and it will pay off. You are doing what has been calling to you for so long. Do not worry about failing or succeeding. Just keep focusing on you and this journey.
P.S. Remember to love yourself.

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