Journal 04: Perfectly Imperfect Week

“Don’t wait for everything to be perfect before you decide to enjoy your life.”
– Joyce Meyer

Week 4: May 21st – May 27th

Sometimes I get so caught up in trying to change and evolve to meet the goals I set for myself. Even if those goals are a few months to a year out. I’m constantly going, going, going. I forget to take the time to enjoy where I am at. I forget that while I am changing and reaching for my dreams I can also enjoy the moment. I didn’t do a whole lot this last week except relax. Enjoy life. Enjoy family time. Enjoy the little things I overlook and take for granted.

Story time.

There was a time that inspired me to start this journey. Nothing major happened in my life to inspire that small spark that lit up the fire within my soul. It was merely just a matter of thoughts that inspired me. Not just any ordinary thought. You see, before I began this journey I only saw and thought of what I didn’t have. What I didn’t achieve. Then one day I thought of everything that I did have…

I didn’t matter that I didn’t have everything at that moment. Because at that moment I had all the things that mattered most to me. I wasn’t starving or homeless. I have a loving family. I have a car that still runs. I have a roof over my head. I was able to pay my bills on time. Although my circumstances weren’t ideal for me, I had the essentials and I had never appreciated that.

It made me realize that although my dreams are not happening, my goals are not yet reached, I should appreciate what I already have. Once I did, I was able to see all the other areas in my life that I take for granted and that was what sparked me on this journey. So this past week, although I didn’t achieve a whole lot in my goals, I was able to appreciate the moment. Appreciate what I already have.


Things I accomplished this week:

  • enjoyed life
  • feel one step closer to being comfortable in my skin

Although I didn’t accomplish a lot with my goals I was able to enjoy being present. There was also a moment last week that melted my heart… I woke up one morning to get ready for the day and saw my reflection in the mirror. My first reaction was admiration. I saw myself and admired the way I looked. I saw my skin, my face, my hair and was content. Before, I would wake up and criticize my skin, my face, my looks. But that day I woke up and saw me. My unique self. Self-love isn’t easy for some. Self-love takes time. And let me tell you that it will be worth it. All the practice will start to get easier. I promise.

Things I need to work on:

  • plan out my week to meet my goals
  • go to the gym 4 times/week
  • think about starting podcast
  • staying in budget – only spend $30/week

Disappointed to say that I spent a lot this past week. Again. Habits are easy to make but hard to change. I have a lot of goals I want to reach. I’ll need to make a plan to stay on top of them. I was also inspired (again) to make a podcast. I didn’t end up uploading the first one I made. I’m not sure why. I’m not sure if it was because it wasn’t perfect or because I didn’t have the vision for it yet. But now… I think I might. I’ll have to see where this idea goes.

See you next week.

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